A request for myself

I want to sleep...
but I'm missing someone a lot =(

Why do I feel as if we're friends?
I want you, but you're not giving it to me, aren't you?
I want to say "I love you", but you're not letting me, aren't you?
I want to be close to you, but you're distancing yourself from me, aren't you?
I have feelings for you, but I don't think the feelings you have for me is the same, isn't it?

I want to ask all of these, but I can't seem to bring myself to ask.
I'm afraid of the answers.

I'm such a COWARD
but my eyes can't close.